Fragile Man

With vivid imagery, the prophet Isaiah describes the contrast between frail humanity and our everlasting Creator. You can read his poetic prophecy for yourself in Isaiah 40…or settle for my meditations from the chapter below…or both.

Fragile blades,
Dew dripping
At sunrise.
By the time
Sun climbs
Mid-sky,
Withered clippings.
A million slender strands, 
Cut off without thought,
Scattered by slightest breeze,
To decay, to rot,
Return to dust.
The place they just
Were severed…
Refilled next dawn
With new wisps of green,
Like they were never gone.

A field aflame
With hues of red,
Speckled yellow,
Spots of blue. 
Summer plains
Attract, invite,
Inspire, impress,
Until most inglorious
Whirling blades invade.
Cut off beauty, 
Colors fade,
Petals shrivel, 
Absorbed again
By earth that birthed them, 
A season of beauty
Replaced by barren dirt.

Fragile man.
We think ourselves 
Core of our world.
We are fixed.
We foolishly expect
To chart the orbits
Of our universe,
Settled at the center of history, 
Surely
We are, 
Each of us, 
Irreplaceable,
Indispensable, 
Within the sphere of our domain.

Not so.
We grow
And wither in a day,
Refilling space
Occupied by
Others before,
Our moment replaced
By others behind,
Millennia’s line,
Like blades of grass.

But we create – 
We build, cultivate, innovate.
We change the world 
With new ideas,
Miracles and marvels,
Cities and civilizations – 
Those endure.

Until they don’t.
Scythe of time passes by,
Reducing glory to ruin.
Revolutionary Roman aqueducts
Become artifacts,
Employing archeologists
But globally replaced 
By the new wonder
Of spinning motor
And plastic pipes.

Why do we think
Our empires will last forever?
History is littered
With the rubble 
Of crumbled conquerors,
Conquered and cut off
Like wildflowers.

Only One stands forever,
Indispensable, the center,
Origin, and destination of history.
The ground from which our lives grow,
The sun, the dew, the wind that blows.
The Master, meticulously placing
Every blade of grass within His cosmos,
Unconquerable Conqueror.

Behold, your God.
With strength He comes,
And shepherd’s rod
To guide and gather
Scattered flock:
Fragile man, 
Once dispersed at His breath,
But carried home upon His breast.

Deep oceans measured in His hand,
The vast expanse of sky
Marked off with one span.
All the dust of earth – 
Man’s substance too, 
To which we soon return – 
He knows its volume
And its weight.

Himalayan, Andes, Pamir ranges
Monolithic arid peaks
Hold up the sky, it seems, 
And bid fragile man beware.
All who seek a summit in the clouds
Find beauty, glory, danger there.
Muddy jungle mountains
At a distance, masquerade
As softer rolling hills of green,
But all who walk those trails have seen
The might of mountains
Mocking fragile man.
But God?
He weighs every mountain and hill
Together in His scale.

Nations that rage and rise today
Will not remain.
All empires combined 
Are like one drop of water
To the One Who holds
All oceans in His hand.
No dimension, no amount
Of measure can define
The Spirit of no limit.
All the wisdom of the sages
Adds no value 
To his counsel – 
Just, Discerner of the ages.

Incomparable his might,
The timeless reach 
Of his eternal life,
No beginning and no end.
Our lives, planted, sown,
And taking root to grow,
Quickly faint and fade
Within that span 
Of His Almighty hand.

We have not known, 
We have not heard,
The grace and wonder
Of this word:
The crumbled ruin 
Of our best inventions
Holds a promise for some good
Within the working 
Of His wise intentions.

We fall,
Hearts and bodies weary
With the weight
Of our weakness.
He calls,
Summons us to wait
For Him.

The everlasting God, the Lord,
Creator of heaven and earth – 
Treasures the weak,
Empowers the faint,
Reaches with might
For exhausted, fragile man.

Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, 
That the everlasting God, the LORD,
The Creator of the ends of the earth,
Fainteth not, neither is weary? 

There is no searching of his understanding.
He giveth power to the faint;
And to them that have no might
He increaseth strength.

Even the youths shall faint and be weary,
And the young men shall utterly fall:
But they that wait upon the LORD
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings as eagles;
They shall run, and not be weary; 
And they shall walk, and not faint.

Isaiah 40:28-31

Jeremiah 17

Thus saith the LORD, “Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the LORD. For he shall be like the heath in the desert, and shall not see when good cometh; but shall inhabit the parched places in the wilderness, in a salt land and not inhabited.

“Blessed is the man that trusteth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is. For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit.”

Jeremiah 17:5-8

(Seriously – you should actually read the text. If you’re on this page, reading the words the Spirit supernaturally spoke through Jeremiah the prophet is way more important than reading the words I scribbled in my journal and then typed on my computer.)

Not much grows in the salt flats in Death Valley…

It’s me too.
In your story,
I hear mine.
Details differ,
Characters contrast,
Factors vary – 
But at the very center,
The heart of all 
The chaos, striving,
Restlessness, anxiety,
Troubled doubt
And discontent
Insecurity,
We’re the same,
You and me.

We trust in man,
Whether other or self.
We count human weakness
Our greatest strength.
I can do 
He can do
She can do
They can do
For me
Whatever I deem
Necessary
For my security.
I’ll be happy,
Satisfied,
Complete,
If I just…
If he just…
If she just…
If they just…

My heart turns 
Away from Life
And Strength
And Peace
To worship at altars
Of my own construction,
Blind to the source 
Of self-destruction – 
Attempts to alter,
Order, rule my world
Secure my rest
Purchase my pleasure
Defend my treasure.

I fear the absence
Or the loss
Of what I deem
Precious
Because I know 
I cannot be
He cannot be
She cannot be 
They cannot be
Strong enough
Wise enough 
Efficient enough
Attractive enough
Empowered enough
To procure or to secure
The object of my desire.

Jeremiah’s curse is just.
We face seasons 
Of scorching heat
With well-founded
Fear and anxiety.
Roots of trust
That spiral into
Desert sand
Cannot stand
The year of drought.
We wither and fade
From trusting man.

We will not see 
The good we crave
In wilderness
And barren waste.
We will not bear 
The fruits of love
As shriveled, dying
Desert shrubs.

Mercy without measure –
You do not leave us 
To the ruin 
Of pursuing 
Desert treasure.
Mirage of promise 
Trusting man
Will vanish.
The one who trusts the Lord
Is planted by a stream.
Anxiety must dissipate,
By the gift
Of faith alone replaced
With confidence
In Providence,
Relentless Your benevolence,
Unending strength of sustenance.

You will always be
Strong enough
Wise enough 
Efficient enough
Attractive enough
Almighty enough
To give and to protect
My comfort, peace,
And lasting rest,
Security,
And fruitfulness.

Leaves in drought 
Remaining green
Draw from a source
Of Life unseen.
The hottest blast
Cannot consume
The heart that rests
In trusting You.

Perfectionism

 I will publish the name of the LORD: ascribe ye greatness unto our God. He is the Rock, his work is perfect: for all his ways are judgment: a God of truth and without iniquity, just and right is he.
– Deuteronomy 32:3-4

I want.
I crave.
I yearn.
Desires burn,
Passions enslave.
I try too hard
Reach too far
Run too fast
Frantically
Frenetically
Unending pursuit
Of all I think I need
To be content.
Satisfied.
Peaceful.
Complete.

I want to be a god – 
Or at least god-like,
Exalted in others’ view,
Seen and approved 
For all I can do
And how well I 
Can do it.

Mine be the kingdom,
And power, and glory.
I must be worthy.
I need praise.
So I must achieve
Perfection.

You love me too much 
To let my self-erected 
Monuments of majesty
Stolen
Stand.
You smash the ruse
Of selfish ambition.
Demands
Broken,
Stripped of power to compel
For me what belongs to You.

Perfection
Is Yours, not mine.
You alone are worthy of praise.
The glory and power
And kingdom are yours.

You perform perfectly
All that You do
And nothing is too hard for You.
You are pleased by Your works
And Your creation’s
Right response of praise,
Because You alone are God.

I am complete,
            not because I fill myself
            with praise of men,
            but because I am hidden
            in Christ, fullness of God.

I have peace,
            not because I can achieve
            the ends I pursue
            and get what I want,
            but because You,
            at cost of blood bought
            an end to all hostilities.

I am satisfied,
            not because I have finally
            drained the cup of pleasure…
            I grasp so fiercely it shatters,
            shards of perceived delight
            piercing instead of pleasing;

No. 
I am content, 
            when unfulfilled I turn, 
             finally to find again 
             You are the treasure
           my restless soul is seeking.